SELFISH OR SELFLESS!!!

I am searching for that something...that my heart is seeking for....but I know I can't get that yet..I have just climbed one step out of 10...may be I genuinely have to struggle for that...but I don't wanna...feel likeI have lost everythin....I turn around but again I see those fool faces.. those crapy minds... those dirty feelings...those intolerable ideas..its enuf..may be more than enuf....every morning when I see my face in the mirror..I hate myself one more time......why we trust people so easily.....but life goes on....world is cruel...so are the people ..they think only they have heart.....only their emotions counts....only they get hurt .....very selfish(including me)....I still remember one of my friend sayin..world is a stage...life is a drama....god is the director...and we all are actors...and that perfectly makes sense...every one is playing their best to complete this drama....but why everybody is tryin hard to play the selfish role...why they can't be selfless????..hard to know them...even if u try they will turn themself for a while into fake world and give u the fake ideas...fake love...fake feelings...fake words...and u believe them ....trust them...and when that trust reach to that hierarchy...then u realise its tooo late...late for everything...your heart feels like going to the place where U can be by yourself only but you can't find any place to hide yourself.....you take shower for probably thousand times but still your heart reckon thats not enough....you feel as if u have lose that self-respect...!!!but still u learn something from that.....and adds up one more page of good experience in your life....nevertheless, again u get lost in this busy, crowdy and selfish world!!!!!

DEAR MR. PRESIDENT

Though, I don't like politics but these days all the countries are heading towards the deep darkness from where its really hard to go anywhere. Whether, its big country like US of America or small and peacful country like Nepal. With the developments of new technologies the war and terror is reaching in its high point as never before...

All these so called "Kings, Presidents and PM" are acting like as if they have done anything special but the results that we are getting makes us to think that they have really become dumb and blind.

May be that's the reason why PINK wrote this wonderful song and tryin to say sumthing to all the presidents...Its not just a lyrics moreover, she is tryin to say so many things through this lyrics. I bet you all will also like this lyrics and do try to listen to the song as well if its possible on your side. And lets try to help poor and needy people as much as we can...PLEASE!!! We have to act by ourself now.. so, lets get started!!!!!!

"DEAR MR. PRESIDENT"(feat. Indigo Girls)

Dear Mr. President,Come take a walk with me.

Let's pretend we're just two people and You're not better than me.

I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?

Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?

What do you feel when you look in the mirror?

Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?

How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Can you even look me in the eyeAnd tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,Were you a lonely boy?

Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?

How can you say No child is left behind?

We're not dumb and we're not blind.

They're all sitting in your cells

While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?

And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?

I can only imagine what the first lady has to say

You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?

How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Minimum wage with a baby on the way

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Building a bed out of a cardboard box

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Hard workHard work

You don't know nothing 'bout hard workHard

workHard workOh

How do you sleep at night?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Dear Mr. President,You'd never take a walk with me.Would you?

Thanks !

COMMENTS ABOUT YOUR BLOG ---From Manish Da

This is the email that was send by the most wonderful person that I have met in my life till now...he was supposed to put this in my comment box but he ended up with an email... Sorry Da !!

Dearest Sadhana...

First of all I am going to scold you for not letting me know about your blog before. But as you told me , I went through every lines I should say, cause I found- it revealed more about you than what you have shared with me. Came to know more about you .....a lot more. Found all the articles very well written. Your words were very well organised and was successful to take me ( us -who ever reads it) to that moment, it reveals your feelings and the excitement very well.

What I see is that you could very perfectly show how speacial that each moment was , how special each person is and how meaningful their words are. Ya, by jotting them down here in your blog has definately helped those people to see what you mean, how much you care for them and what they mean to you. This in turn will reward you with more care and more love cause you have told them how speacial they are to you.

About your speacial 20th birthday note..I am very happy that I could make a difference. And you know thats what I tried for..I was so amazed and felt very happy to see my exact words from my sms...I could clearly see how much special was those words for you...I am so happy for all those.

Well ! wanted to use your comment box for my words but you know I will go on ...on n on. so ended up mailing. I sat, infront of the comp and opened your blog as soon as I came back from work cause I was excited. Once again, found it really good, enjoyed reading every words and happy cause I know you more now. haha.

Ok....got to sleep now even though I have whole day off tomorrow..hahaha...and ya all the very best for all that you are doing. Ya, I know life here is not that easy, many commitments to be made at the same time what I will tell you is "Never confuse your career with your life" cause I can see that you are a girl with ambition and is working hard for it. I know there are many hard times which tries to break the strong side of us, but as I always tell you to be strong and keep on working hard cause that will take you near to your dreams and that is what we want isn't it!!

ok have a gud day tomorrow...I know you will receive it at late afternoon or at nite but still trying to make up your day..haha

Once again ....was very happy to read each and every words of your articles ....

Take care and see you soon...cause its been long since we last saw each other!!!

Your Da..

E-MAIL TO SANJAY SINHA SIR !!!

These are the emails that I send to Sanjay Sir, When I used to work for Nestle India Limited some 3 years back in Nepal. I had nearly forgotten about these emails but recently Sinha Sir just forwarded me so, I just thought to drop these on my blog so that it remains with me forever and ever till I die.

He was the RSM(Regional Sales Manager) of Nestle India Limited and representative of the whole Nepal team. He is the one person whom I really admire and respect. Always ready to help, very generous, intellegent and very good BOSS. I think in my whole life I won't see such a good person as a BOSS. He was simply great and deserves more than the BEST !!! A perfect BOSS from every angle.

Dear Sir,

I must say it was my great privilege, that I got chance to visit India. Though it was only four day visit, it feels as if I have collected the memories of more than four years. I enjoyed each day of my visit. All the members were very much cooperative and helpful towards us. I want to thank all the senior and junior members for their great help and cooperation that is shown towards us.

SPECIAL THANKS

Y.SHETTI
We want to Thank Shetti Sir from the bottom of our heart for inviting us. Thank you for your great coperation and not forgetting, for making our Agra trip possible.

SANJAY SINHA
I don't have any words for you Sir because you are the real Boss for me, for other and for the whole Nepal team. Not only me but others have also gain lot of things from you, I must say its my luck that I got chance to work with such a great person like you.

GAURAV KHANNA
Thank you Sir, for providing each an every information about the Samalkha factory through your great presentation. The visit to Samalkha factory was a very good and awesome experience for all of us, the testing methods and the way of preparing Maggi, Dahi and Everyday which was really very exciting to see. The management and the working system of the Factory was really very good and praiseworthy.

We would also like to Thank, A.K Munjal, J.B Puri, Sanjay Taneja, Santhanam sir, Ganesh Nagapai, Hrithika Sharma and all the team members of Nestle Branch Office.

Lesson I Learnt:-

• for Nestle Quality comes first. Nestle doesn't compromise on Quality.
• for Every company their should be very strong systems and management.
• Hygiene, which should be highly maintained.
• Healthy working environment.
• No communication gap.
• Teamwork, which should always be strong and it is MUST.

Thanking You,
Sadhana Shrestha

This one is for Sinha Sir, written all about the Cookery Contest that was held at Nep trade On 1st of Baisakh 2062 B.S

Dear Sir,

Today, we organise the Cookery Contest in our Modern kitchen at NepTrade. With the help of Nirmal Sir we manage all the things for cooking. We made five teams with five team leaders Sadhana, Lalita, Roshni, Narayani and Anjani.

Though, it was sunny in the day time, all of sudden it start raining after few hours but then also we were able to cook 10 dishes as selected by Nirmal sir. Each team made two items. The judges were Mrs.Nirmal Shrestha, Mrs.Rajendra Shrestha and Mrs.Nitesh Rajput. Though, the work was tough because of the teamwork it became so easy and everybody enjoyed working together with full energy. Some were busy cooking, some cutting, some washing dishes it was a real fun. We felt like we were having picnic and we all missed you so much.

later on, after tasting the food that was made by five teams by the jury members as well as Nitesh Sir, Niramal Sir, Rajendra Sir, KVS Sir, Amit Sir, Miss Rojina and they decided the winners for the 1st Cookery Contest. Here's the list of the winners :

1st = Sadhana's team ( Paneer Butter Masala , Malai sandesh)
2nd = Narayani's team (Potato and cauliflower, Maggi Noodles)
3rd = Roshni's team (Curry Puff, Pudina Aloo)
Special Dish = Anjani's Team = Aloo ko Achar

Now, I personally want to thank you for all this. It was totally a new concept that you built up for us. Whole Nep Trade as well as other has highly appreciate your idea and has promised to continue this idea in coming future also. With your great effort one idea has been successfully fulfilled. Thanks for all those Recipe books. Now I am going to try these recipes at my home also. Today, you have again proved us one good example of Teamwork. i.e between Merchandiser, Promotion and other seniors. Thank you so much sir.

Thanking you,
Sadhana Shrestha.

50 Things You Should Do In Your Life

1. Kiss a Movie Star
2. Swim with a dolphin
3. Take the next taxi to the ariport and catch the next plane to anywhere
4. Run a marathon
5. Do something you fear
6. Bungee Jump
7. Travel from coast to coast across the world
8. Eat something you have caught
9. Make fire without matches
10. Have your portrait painted
11. Win a premiership
12. Brew your own beer
13. Go to the opening night of the ballet
14. Buy cowboy boots in Nashville
15. Become the next internet phenomenon
16. Walk the red carpet at Oscar award night
17. Shower under a waterfall
18. Fall in love in Paris
19. Break up in Rome
20. Write song
21. Read a book in one sitting
22. Go to the World Cup Final
23. Hug a stranger everyday for a week
24. Talk to a stranger on the bus
25. Learn to fly a helicopter
26. Create a cult website and sell it for millions
27. Ride the biggest roller-coaster in the world
28. Memorise a poem
29. Start your own business
30. Buy a share in a racehorse
31. Get a tattoo
32. Play lead guitar in a band
33. Meet someone with your own name
34. Have a star named after you
35. Drink tequila in Mexico
36. Create a world record
37. Invent the next must-have Christmas toy
38. Go to safari
39. Fly in a hot air balloon across the desert
40. Grow your own vegetables
41. Design your own cocktail
42. Shoot a short film
43. Go white-water rafting
44. Milk a cow
45. Watch a lunar eclipse
46. Learn to tango
47. Go Date with five boys/girls in one day
48. Collect something pointless
49. Spend a night in a haunted house
50. Live overseas

Mx

नेपाली पन

एसो सबै को ब्लग पद्दै जादा खेरी मलाई एकदम अचम्म लाग्यो किन कि आज भोली प्राय् जस्तो नेपलि ब्लोग्गेर् हरुको posting म नेपलिमा भएको देख्छु एसो हेर्दा ब्लग को शोवा नै बदे जस्तो लाग्ने नेपालीमा देख्दा, मलाई पनि एसो आफ्नु ब्लग को शोवा बदौन मन लगेर [Roman Unicode] को सहयता लिएर आफ्नो ब्लग मा केहि लेखन जदै छु शोवा बदने कुर त छदैछ।

अब सुरु त गरे लेखन तर के लेखन खासै सोच्न सकेको छैन हुन त दिइमाख् मा अस्तीन देकी एउटा कुरा ले ठाउँ बनाएर बसेको छ धेरै भैसक्यो लेक्छु भनेको तर मेरो लेखाइ को लागि दुलाई को साइत निकल्नु भन्दा बदी भयो के गर्नु काम पनि छैन फुर्सद पनि छैन भने जस्तो भएको छ।

एका बिहान कलेज जना को लागि Train कुर्न बसेको थिए अज 5 min बकी छ भनेर एक्छिन बस्छु भनेर बसे तैतिक्कैमा एक्जना साथीको बहिनी भेट भयो उस्लाई मैले एक दुई चोटि मात्र भेटेको छु त्यो पनि एक्छिन Hi, Hello मात्र राम्रो सँग कुरा गर्ने मौका भने पाएको छैन । लौ ठिकै मौकामा भेट भयो भने मन्मनइ अनि उसँग कुरा गरे :-

" के छ तिम्रो हालखबर ?"

I am fine.
what about you??

"म पनि ठिकै छु अनि कता जना लगेको ?"

I am going to city.

"अनि घर मा सब लाई कस्तो छ ?"

Ya all are fine ..they are doing good...
अनि मैले एसो सोचे के हो जे सोधे पनि English मै जवाफ दिन्छ अनि जे पर्ला पर्ला भनेर मैले सोधे

"के हो तिमीले नेपाली बोल्न बिर्सिस्क्यो कि क्या हो ? "

अनि मैले तेती भन्न पाको छैन उस्को उत्तर आयो

Ya I know but I feel easy to talk in english

ए भने अनि सोधे अनि नेपाली बोल्न बिर्सेंला नि तेसो गर्दा खेरी उस्ले भनी

ahh अलि अलि बिर्सिसक्यो नेपाली लेखन त आउँदैन मलाई बिर्सें ....

लौ !!!! अक्चम !!! परे म त अनि सोधे कति भयो र यहाँ आएको ?

उस्ले अब 3 yrs हुन्छ भनेर भनी तैतिक्कैमा मा train आयो र हामी दुबै train मा चाडऔ । अरु अरु कुरा गर्दै जाधा । मैले एसो सोचे लौ म आएको पनि ७ महिना हुन लाग्यो अब को २ र आधा बर्ष मा मैले पनि नेपाली बोल्न बिर्सेंने हो कि भनेर तर वीरसना त कसरी सक्किन्छ र हुन त नेपाली बोल्न बिर्सनु उस्को कहाँ गलती होरा त्यो त अब स्कुल मा सबै English बोल्ने अनि अरु ठाउँमा पनि ईंग्लिश नै बडी प्रयोग हुने तेसैले ईंग्लिश नै सजिलो तर मेरो बिचार मा हो English बोल्नु एकदम जरुरी छ बिदेशमा तर आफ्नु मत्रु भाषा नै बिर्सनु चाँही हुँदैन किनकी त्यो नै हाम्रो सबै भन्दा ठुलो पहिचान हो । होइन र !

MY SPECIAL BIRTHDAY


January 3rd has always been a special day for me cause its my birthdate. Everybody gets excited about their Birthdays and so do I . It was my 20th birthday and I didn't expect anything special on this Birthday. I am here in Melbourne so I haven't told anybody about my birthdate and talking about my families, I am far and far most probably 1000 and 1000 miles away from them so this year I am going to miss those special birthday party that we used to do at our home with my dear and near frens and relatives. My mom used to get excited about our Birthday than anyone else. We used to have blast. Last year it was pretty good with Sangita, Hari, Agya, Sita, Atul, Kiran and Sachin.

I thought this birthday will be boring within myself as I am far away from all of my family members and frens but this year's Birthday turned out to be the most special and important birthday for me. Neither I had anykind of special gathering nor any kind of special celebration I was all alone within myself for a whole day but then also it was the special birthday for me. I was bit excited from the day before. I haven't told anyone about my birthdate here in Melbourne but co-incidently Manish Da came to know about my birthdate. He is the one who is really very close with my heart and a very special Brother in my life. He is always there for me to support and to help. I just feel so good to share my feelings whenever I feel lonely or miss my home. Thanks Da for being there for me la.

Manish Da was the first one to wish me on my birthday through sms. He just send me text msg at around 12:10 midnite by saying " Happy Birthday..... I wish you to have a very beautiful day from the early morning itself. Wish your dream of Melbourne's life starts being true along with the start of the brand new year. Wanted to be the first one to wish so just kept myself awake till now. I will talk to you in the morning. Once again Happy B'day....Ur Da" I was so happy to see his msg..so sweeeeeeet... Thanks da for your love and support. I am proud of myself coz I make you my brother. Thanks alot.

I was just lyin on my bed...without getting gud sleep suddenly my phone rang around 12:20 midnight..as soon as I picked up the call I heard " Happy B'day To U...Happy B'day To U...Happy B'day dear Sadhana, Happy B'day To U...." and it was my own dear Sachin. I got a first birthday call from him as always. We talked for few mins and I took a sleep since I had work from the morning itself. I had to sleep. Thanks Sachin for your call. Thanks for everything and Thanks a million for ur support and love.

At around 6 am in the morning, I got a call from Manish Da he wished me. I wake up and took a quick shower then I worship and prayed infornt of the God. If I were back in Nepal then my mom would have given me boiled eggs and yogurt as a sagun and worship god for my good health and better education. So, to continue those culture.. I just boiled eggs and have it as a sagun...at that moment I really missed my mom and family...Then I ran towards my work as I was getting late. I finished up my work around 4 pm as soon as switched on my mobile I got text msg from Archu Di saying " Dear Julie, Happy B'day to U ..May all your dreams come true. Dad, Mom, Bandu, Bhai ... Take care ..Love U" I came to know that they were trying to give me a call so I just quickly give them a call ..Mom picked up the phone as soon as she picked up the call and heard my voice she was so happy. She wished me and told me that she was trying to call me from the morning itself but I had switch off my mobile so they couldn't contact me. I felt like cryin....but made myself strong then I talked with Archu Di for a while and put the phone down.

I talked with Manish Da over phone as I had told him that I will be meeting him in the afternoon but I couldn't cause of my work. But he understands the problem and he is simply great. Then I got yet another text msg from unexpected person and he was non other than Anand Da sayin " Many many Happy Returns of the Day and Happy B'day". Later on he gave me a call and wished me and it really feels good when you get call from totally unexpected person. Thanks Anand Da for your call and text msg and Thanks for all your support.

There are some frens who are really very special in our life. I also have such kind of frens whom I really like and love...likewise Sangita is one of them...she is the one who remembers all of her frens birthdate that's why she send me a warm birthday wishes through email .... Hey Sangita Missin you alot!! and Last but not the least..Agya..she is my best fren..we have spend so much time together, Thanks Agya for your offline msgs..I really miss your company and gossips..and not forgetting Bandu Di...Thanks Bandu Di for your lovely Birthday card.

At last, Thanks everyone for those calls and msgs. I was really very overwhelmed by those calls and msgs. Though I was far from you all, but you all made my Birthday so special. Thanks Manish Da, Sachin, Anand Da, Archu Di,Bandu Di, Sangita, Agya and my whole family. LOVE U ALL.